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'Who is he?' These three words seemed to stand before my eyes traced upon the darkness; a lowering malignant cloud seemed hanging over me, and I felt its oppressiveness, and waited for it to break.

I had grown used to many things of late; I had learned much from what I had seen at the Zasyekins; their disorderly ways, tallow candle-ends, broken knives and forks, grumpy Vonifaty, and shabby maid-servants, the manners of the old princess – all their strange mode of life no longer struck me...

But what I was dimly discerning now in Zinaida, I could never get used to...

'An adventuress!' my mother had said of her one day.

An adventuress – she, my idol, my divinity? This word stabbed me, I tried to get away from it into my pillow, I was indignant – and at the same time what would I not have agreed to, what would I not have given only to be that lucky fellow at the fountain!... My blood was on fire and boiling within me.

'The garden ... the fountain,' I mused...

'I will go into the garden.' I dressed quickly and slipped out of the house.

The night was dark, the trees scarcely whispered, a soft chill air breathed down from the sky, a smell of fennel trailed across from the kitchen garden.

I went through all the walks; the light sound of my own footsteps at once confused and emboldened me; I stood still, waited and heard my heart beating fast and loudly.

At last I went up to the fence and leaned against the thin bar.

Suddenly, or was it my fancy, a woman's figure flashed by, a few paces from me ... I strained my eyes eagerly into the darkness, I held my breath.

What was that? Did I hear steps, or was it my heart beating again? 'Who is here?' I faltered, hardly audibly.

What was that again, a smothered laugh ... or a rustling in the leaves ... or a sigh just at my ear? I felt afraid ... 'Who is here?' I repeated still more softly.

The air blew in a gust for an instant; a streak of fire flashed across the sky; it was a star falling.

'Zinaida?' I wanted to call, but the word died away on my lips.

And all at once everything became profoundly still around, as is often the case in the middle of the night...

Even the grasshoppers ceased their churr in the trees – only a window rattled somewhere.

I stood and stood, and then went back to my room, to my chilled bed.

I felt a strange sensation; as though I had gone to a tryst, and had been left lonely, and had passed close by another's happiness.

The following day I only had a passing glimpse of Zinaida: she was driving somewhere with the old princess in a cab.

But I saw Lushin, who, however, barely vouchsafed me a greeting, and Malevsky.

The young count grinned, and began affably talking to me.

Of all those who visited at the lodge, he alone had succeeded in forcing his way into our house, and had favourably impressed my mother.

My father did not take to him, and treated him with a civility almost insulting.

Chapter XVII

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