"Would I forgive him for the selfish idea, and prove my pardon by a reconciling kiss?"
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"No: I would rather be excused."
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Here I heard myself apostrophised as a "hard little thing;" and it was added, "any other woman would have been melted to marrow at hearing such stanzas crooned in her praise."
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I assured him I was naturally hard-very flinty, and that he would often find me so; and that, moreover, I was determined to show him divers rugged points in my character before the ensuing four weeks elapsed: he should know fully what sort of a bargain he had made, while there was yet time to rescind it.
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"Would I be quiet and talk rationally?"
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"I would be quiet if he liked, and as to talking rationally, I flattered myself I was doing that now."
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He fretted, pished, and pshawed.
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"Very good," I thought; "you may fume and fidget as you please: but this is the best plan to pursue with you, I am certain.
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I like you more than I can say; but I'll not sink into a bathos of sentiment: and with this needle of repartee I'll keep you from the edge of the gulf too; and, moreover, maintain by its pungent aid that distance between you and myself most conducive to our real mutual advantage."
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From less to more, I worked him up to considerable irritation; then, after he had retired, in dudgeon, quite to the other end of the room, I got up, and saying, "I wish you good-night, sir," in my natural and wonted respectful manner, I slipped out by the side-door and got away.
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The system thus entered on, I pursued during the whole season of probation; and with the best success.
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He was kept, to be sure, rather cross and crusty; but on the whole I could see he was excellently entertained, and that a lamb-like submission and turtle-dove sensibility, while fostering his despotism more, would have pleased his judgment, satisfied his common-sense, and even suited his taste less.
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In other people's presence I was, as formerly, deferential and quiet; any other line of conduct being uncalled for: it was only in the evening conferences I thus thwarted and afflicted him.
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He continued to send for me punctually the moment the clock struck seven; though when I appeared before him now, he had no such honeyed terms as "love" and "darling" on his lips: the best words at my service were "provoking puppet," "malicious elf," "sprite," "changeling," &c.
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For caresses, too, I now got grimaces; for a pressure of the hand, a pinch on the arm; for a kiss on the cheek, a severe tweak of the ear.
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It was all right: at present I decidedly preferred these fierce favours to anything more tender.
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Mrs. Fairfax, I saw, approved me: her anxiety on my account vanished; therefore I was certain I did well.
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Meantime, Mr. Rochester affirmed I was wearing him to skin and bone, and threatened awful vengeance for my present conduct at some period fast coming.
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I laughed in my sleeve at his menaces.
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"I can keep you in reasonable check now," I reflected; "and I don't doubt to be able to do it hereafter: if one expedient loses its virtue, another must be devised."
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Yet after all my task was not an easy one; often I would rather have pleased than teased him.
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My future husband was becoming to me my whole world; and more than the world: almost my hope of heaven.
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He stood between me and every thought of religion, as an eclipse intervenes between man and the broad sun.
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I could not, in those days, see God for His creature: of whom I had made an idol.
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Chapter 25