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"My spirit," I answered mentally, "is willing to do what is right; and my flesh, I hope, is strong enough to accomplish the will of Heaven, when once that will is distinctly known to me.

At any rate, it shall be strong enough to search-inquire-to grope an outlet from this cloud of doubt, and find the open day of certainty."

It was the first of June; yet the morning was overcast and chilly: rain beat fast on my casement.

I heard the front-door open, and St. John pass out.

Looking through the window, I saw him traverse the garden.

He took the way over the misty moors in the direction of Whitcross-there he would meet the coach.

"In a few more hours I shall succeed you in that track, cousin," thought I: "I too have a coach to meet at Whitcross. I too have some to see and ask after in England, before I depart for ever."

It wanted yet two hours of breakfast-time.

I filled the interval in walking softly about my room, and pondering the visitation which had given my plans their present bent.

I recalled that inward sensation I had experienced: for I could recall it, with all its unspeakable strangeness.

I recalled the voice I had heard; again I questioned whence it came, as vainly as before: it seemed in me-not in the external world.

I asked was it a mere nervous impression-a delusion? I could not conceive or believe: it was more like an inspiration.

The wondrous shock of feeling had come like the earthquake which shook the foundations of Paul and Silas's prison; it had opened the doors of the soul's cell and loosed its bands-it had wakened it out of its sleep, whence it sprang trembling, listening, aghast; then vibrated thrice a cry on my startled ear, and in my quaking heart and through my spirit, which neither feared nor shook, but exulted as if in joy over the success of one effort it had been privileged to make, independent of the cumbrous body.

"Ere many days," I said, as I terminated my musings, "I will know something of him whose voice seemed last night to summon me. Letters have proved of no avail-personal inquiry shall replace them."

At breakfast I announced to Diana and Mary that I was going a journey, and should be absent at least four days.

"Alone, Jane?" they asked.

"Yes; it was to see or hear news of a friend about whom I had for some time been uneasy."

They might have said, as I have no doubt they thought, that they had believed me to be without any friends save them: for, indeed, I had often said so; but, with their true natural delicacy, they abstained from comment, except that Diana asked me if I was sure I was well enough to travel.

I looked very pale, she observed.

I replied, that nothing ailed me save anxiety of mind, which I hoped soon to alleviate.

It was easy to make my further arrangements; for I was troubled with no inquiries-no surmises.

Having once explained to them that I could not now be explicit about my plans, they kindly and wisely acquiesced in the silence with which I pursued them, according to me the privilege of free action I should under similar circumstances have accorded them.

I left Moor House at three o'clock p.m., and soon after four I stood at the foot of the sign-post of Whitcross, waiting the arrival of the coach which was to take me to distant Thornfield.

Amidst the silence of those solitary roads and desert hills, I heard it approach from a great distance.

It was the same vehicle whence, a year ago, I had alighted one summer evening on this very spot-how desolate, and hopeless, and objectless! It stopped as I beckoned.

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